爱到最后

原文：美文网

译者：深圳大学 赖小琪

爱到最后只剩自己在数伤痛

　　The end of love is countless pain I stay with alone.

　　

几多爱，几多劫难，几多心在痛，几多蛊惑迷离！世人竟还身渡其中！！我亦如此！！

　　The more you love, the greater pain you will suffer, the greater confusion you will undergo. But still numerous folks are still addicted to it, including me.

　　

我不知道是自己太胆怯还是太懦弱？或许是我们在自欺欺人！我不懂自己会那么做，谁也不懂！谁也不知道！爱到最后只剩自己在数伤痛！

　　I have no idea whether I am too timid or cowardly, or I am simply burying my head in the sand. I lose my direction and no one can help me recover. The end of love is countless pain I stay with alone.

　　今年的冬来的那么肆虐，像锋利的刀刃狠狠地割着人的心！血凝固在很冰冷的冬天！这是个令人心醉与心痛的季节！我们都喜欢选择在这时徒添伤悲！细数一丝丝伤痕！爱到最后只剩自己在数伤痛！

　　This winter came so wildly, so much so that it is just like a sharp sward that cuts my heart brutally. My blood is frozen in this icy winter, a fascinating as well as heartbroken season. We all incline to add our pain to mind at this time, counting every little bit of it. The end of love is countless pain I stay with alone!

　　爱一个人有多苦，只有自己最清楚，付出了全部，青春已荒芜，原来只是我太胆怯！年少无知总做一些不可思仪的事！昨夜梦难留，今夜难有梦，我和你都是在远处，我也不想装糊涂，很多时候是逼不得已！我也只好装糊涂，假装自己有另一个路的起点，假装自己很幸福！伤在心里痛，眼泪再也流不出！

It can only be interpreted by yourself by how painstaking it is to love someone at the cost of everything including youth. Then you may realize that your timidity and innocence render you do something unbelievable. It is hard to retain the dream for last night, while tonight there will be none. We are staying afar and I do not mean to pretend to be ok as there was nothing happening. I do so not out of my accord. I have to pretend to have anther starting point and live a happy life after we break down our relationship. My heart is aching and my tears have already been exhausted!

　　

　　不是我不爱，而是太爱，太需要！谁懂？

　　I pretend to be happy not because I do not love you any more. On the contrary, it is because I love you so much and I need you more than anyone else does! Do you know?

　　人生充满了遗憾。有时候，遗憾也未尝不是一种美，只是，这美是要付出昂贵的代价的，常常会心痛，常常怀念，却永远深埋在那里，这一种爱是刻骨铭心的，无论怎样努力也无法从心头驱散。一切是不是错?一切是不是很荒唐?我很矛盾！

　　Life is full of pities. Sometimes, pity is also kind of beauty, but with high cost. I will often feel heartbroken and miss you, but I have to bury all my feelings deeply. My love towards you is so impressive and profound that nothing can lessen it little! Is it wrong for me to do so? Is it absurd? I feel contradictory at my heart.

　　孤独的徘徊在这荒漠的世界上，人生注定是孤的……心痛了，心碎了不会有人看见。

　　Now I am wandering around this deserted world and my life is doomed to be lonely. My miserably feelings will never be touched by anyone else.

　　

其实我们都是熟悉的陌生人。只希望我们每个人都多一些宽容，多一些真诚，多一些爱!

　　Actually we are remote acquaintances to each other. I wish we can show more generosity, sincerity and love to each other.

　　此刻比任何时候都孤独，我怀疑自己的真实。怀疑现实的真实，岁月对于人来说如同延伸的铁轨，没有回头的可能。而现在的我却真的不知道如何来调整这个步伐。也许伤痛的心灵需要静静安抚，也许时间会将这一切尘封！

　　I am doubting my existence when experience great solitariness. I cast doubt on the truth of reality. Time is just like a stretching railway that can never been relived. Now I am totally at a loss how to adjust my pace again. Maybe time can heal my broken heart gradually and fade away everything.

　　爱到最后只剩自己在数伤痛！

The end of love is countless pain I stay with alone!